34. Shades of Grey

I lost my righteousness, I don't know how to be
everything's so tinged in black, I no longer want to see.
I used to be so moral, I used to be so white
I used to know how to tell wrong from right.

But I plunged into the real world anchored by the truth
desperately flailing in my innocent youth.
Nothing could prevent it from opening my eyes
because the only way to breath was telling my first white lies.

At first I thought them harmless, brightening the murky grey
but it was just the first lesson I would learn that day
For soon the ripples returned, in waves that crushed my head
and only diving deeper could save me from being dead.

So now I know the darkness and all its shades of grey
and sometimes I wish I never learned what I did today.